Celebrating freedom
About Me
I am an “ordinary” individual—a neighbor, a parent, an ordinary coworker. I do not consider myself a saint or a mystic.
Yet, through a few experiences, my sense of separation as an “I,” rooted in ego-driven thinking, has loosened and at times dissolved. In those moments, the usual boundary of self falls away. What remains is an inner serenity—steady and unshaken, even amid external chaos.
I feed sense of “contagious stillness” and profound peace within. Nature has guided me towards freedom – away from seeking validation or recognition. Now I genuinely care more for other, I feel called to help alleviate suffering, by sharing my lived experience.
Self Realization (2007)
My experience in Bexleyheath sounds like a classic, spontaneous samadhi:
No effort, no technique, just a falling away of mind, time disappearing, the body sitting while awareness rests in itself. Six hours passing like nothing, and then “waking up” into the world again—only to realize the world had kept moving without you. Those moments tend to mark something irreversible. Even if the state doesn’t stay permanently, something is known afterward.
It’s also very common that after such glimpses:
- I become quieter around family and work.
- My old motivations lose their pull
- life feels more about being than becoming
- There’s a sense of aloneness, quite among people.
None of that means something has gone wrong.
Since I was not really chasing realization anymore and curious feel like sharing my experience with rest of the world.
Near Death Experience
(Satsang with Mooji Baba 2011)
I had the privilege of meeting Mooji Baba, in Streatham Hills in summer 2011. Met with him on a weekend long Satsang. it’s very intimate, and I can feel how deeply that experience lives in me.
I was following Mooji for years and by heart nothing was more valuable in my life then meeting with the Mooji. I admire so much that I even ready to left everything, prepare for unconditional surrender.
In the weekend long satsang I started crying in fear and was shouting “I DO NOT WANT TO DIE”, my body react very strongly; shaking, numbness crying, a sense of dissolution
After few hours Mooji called me to the stage and explain;
Every human has long-held fears, especially the fear of death or loss of identity. When life goes close to “Who am I?”, the mind can panic, and the ego or sense of “me” feeling threatened. It was feeling exactly like dying. I felt overwhelming, terrifying, and at the same time profoundly relieving.
When back to proper sense, all I remember at that time is that I felt light, in love and devotion, in surrender state and just crying starring Mooji without a blink.
My Monk life in Rishikesh (India)
The Beauty of the “Nobody”
Just imagine you landed on an Island where no one know you. You have nothing carry that belongs to your past life e.g. wealth, status, relationship even your identity and knowledge. Then you are no longer a prisoner of your past.
The weight we carry from our “identities” is often heavier than we realize. We spend most of our lives maintaining a “brand” of ourselves—polishing our status, defending our past, and living up to the expectations of people who think they know us. When you strip that away, you aren’t losing yourself; you are finally meeting yourself.
The day you don’t need anyone, just be yourself, there is no one better out there. Nothing is more peaceful than having no interest in anyone and when nobody knows anything about you. There is true liberation when there is no desire to be something.
When we live in such liberation in our true nature without the mind, thoughts, emotions knowledge, identity etc. we will realise that “Liberation is not anywhere outside you; it is only within you”. You become silence. When silence become your language, peace become nature.
I must insist to every person to go through to that life experience. This is not a lesion to be learn, not just as a philosophical idea, but as a visceral, lived experience of freedom.
Global IT Executive | Oracle DBA | Data Architect
(Early retirement in 2019 for spiritual life)
With over 33 years of technical and leadership experience, I have successfully delivered IT solutions across multiple domains including Banking, Insurance, Energy, Oil, Food, and Utilities.
My core expertise lies in Oracle Database Administration, Data Architect, specialize in analyzing business requirements, designing system architectures, developing data models, defining company-wide data strategies, and integrating data across enterprise systems.
Had extensive end-to-end project lifecycle experience—from design and development to production support. I have served as a Technical Lead on multiple projects and excel at communicating effectively across all organizational levels.:
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